Hate has no place on my FB Page: Kitiki #404

Removing the welcome mat and Blocking Trolls

“I know how it must hurt to give up on conversation, but you must look after yourself before you can do anything else,” a friend wrote when I told him I was going to do something I’ve never done before. Life is about choices. To walk away from people who have promised to work together and they act as though you don’t matter is hard. But as my friend points out, “you must look after yourself before you can do anything else.”

In our whirlwind life, there are storms you avoid once you have managed to get out of them. There are promises made to focus on things that will make thing make better, but life is as Maya Angelou once said, “When people tell you who they are, believe them the first time.” Mea culpas don’t matter. Public apologies don’t matter. You don’t matter so you move on. It’s hard.

When you hope you’re wrong. You get disrespected. When you apologize publicly. It’s ignored. When you share others’ thoughts [1] and explain how assuming what you’re thinking is a wrong path to travel. It goes unappreciated, they appropriate a hubris to think [assume] they know what I was thinking. You are hurt. You’ve been here before. But this time? It’s enough.

In some people’s world if you don’t agree, then you are wrong. But it some cases, the truth is difficult to hide. As speculation intensifies often people want their narrative to prevail, and rather than be shamed to reality, they take a pulpit that ushers in self-righteous indignation. Recently, federal investigators have found no evidence linking Tyler Robinson, who is accused of assassinating conservative activist Charlie Kirk, to left-wing groups. There exist no evidence, despite claims from former President Donald Trump and his administration, three sources told NBC News.[2]

But at Kirk’s memorial event in Arizona, Stephen Miller, the White House Deputy Chief of Staff, targeted the radical left. Rather than offering a leaf toward reconciliation or forgiveness as Kirk’s wife did, Stephen Miller chose to address the “forces of wickedness” that enabled his assassination: “We stand for what is good, virtuous, and noble. And to those trying to incite violence against us, what do you have? You have nothing; you are nothing. You are wickedness, jealousy, and hatred. You can build nothing, produce nothing, create nothing.”[3]

I approached this declaration capriciously as if I am a member of the radical left. That being true then, I am viewed as not good, not virtuous, and not noble. I incite violence. Reading this, I am unphased. I feel as if I am a member of the radical left, I’m listening to a bully tell me I’m nothing and incapable of creating nothing.

I refuse to hear if I’m not MAGA my voice has no meaning. My voice rings true despite the hurt I feel. I rise above the effrontery that tells me my attempts to share and tell my story, even through others’ voices is twisted, and beneath me and it hurts. So I cut off the conversations that imperil me as they try to get me to go to a place I don’t want to go. I refuse to engage in conversations designed to tempt and ignore my right as an American. I refuse to be unseen as some would like. I refuse to not acknowledge the people who don’t look like but see me. I refuse to allow people on my wall because their vision of the constitution, their vision of forgiveness, their vision of life liberty and pursuit of happiness is not the same as mine. It makes me sad. Sad that my right to “… stand for what is good, virtuous and noble” is methodically be stripped from me.

I am sad I lost this conversation, but I will continue to try to focus on that which binds us. I’m sad people die at the hands of people who can’t find other ways to be heard. I am angry, but my anger is directed toward how I couldn’t be heard and seen as I am. My anger is not directed to others as Miller told Vice President Vance. “The thing” Miller said about anger “is that unfocused anger, or blind rage, is not a productive emotion, but focused anger, righteous anger, directed for a just cause is one of the most important agents of change in human history,” Miller told Vice President JD Vance, as Vance guest-hosted Charlie Kirk's podcast.[4]

That type of anger led to the Tulsa Massacre. That type of anger led to internment camps in the United States during WWII. That type of focused anger led to the holocaust, lynchings in the south, the Trail of Tears,[5] the Oklahoma City Bombing,[6] the attack at a church in Charlotteville[7] and January 6^th. According to the Anti-Defamation League, since 2002, right-wing ideologies have fueled more than 70% of all extremist attacks and domestic terrorism plots in the United States.[8] And a study where the Justice Department indicated last year that the number of far-right attacks in this country continues to outpace all other types of terrorism and domestic violent extremism was removed from the Justice Department website in the past few days, according to 404 Media. [9]

I removed from my wall,[10] and blocked on Facebook people who caused me “focused” anger.

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[1] When Racists Watch a Racist Die - Dr Stacey Patton

[2] 'No evidence' found yet of ties between Charlie Kirk's shooting and left-wing groups, officials say

[3] 'You thought you could kill Charlie Kirk? You have immortalized him, now millions…': Stephen Miller | Watch

[4] Charlie Kirk's death becomes Stephen Miller's latest rallying cry against the left

[5] Trail of Tears | Facts, Map, & Significance | Britannica

[6] Timothy McVeigh | Biography, Oklahoma City Bombing, Death, & Facts | Britannica

[7] Charleston church members reflect on Charlottesville violence, forgiveness - CBS News

[8] 'No evidence' found yet of ties between Charlie Kirk's shooting and left-wing groups, officials say

[9] DOJ Deletes Study Showing Domestic Terrorists Are Most Often Right Wing

[10] Will you be on my wall? Kitiki #147